Thanks

It's a good thing that Thanksgiving follows my birthday. It helps me get out of my irritating, annual hyperintrospection. It’s like the calendar says what my loved ones start saying behind their eyes, “Jesus, you whiny pain-in-the-ass. Isn’t there anything about your life that doesn’t suck?”

Why, yes – yes, there are several things, actually.
Here are a few things that I am thankful for, both large and small:
  • My Dear Husband. I truly mean “Dear Husband” without a smirk or snicker. I used to think it was goofy and corny when people thanked their spouses during acceptance speeches. WTF did they have to do with it, I thought. Now that we’ve spent approximately 40% of our lifetimes together, I can’t imagine where I would be without him. He has stood fast when others have taken off running – and that alone earns him my eternal gratitude. The love I get is a gift-with-purchase.

  • My Mom. She has been doing great over the last two years taking care of her health for herself, and I’m very proud of her for that.

  • My Dad and Stepmom. My relationship with them has grown tremendously over the years, and I consider myself lucky to have three parents.

  • My brothers and sisters. I started with one, then got three more, then another one in my messily, wonderfully, blended family. Whether by blood or marriage, whether we grew up together or not, they’re mine. I'm particularly glad my baby brother (which he will be even when he joins AARP) is home and safe.

  • My nieces and nephews. It has been amazing to watch them grow into the people they are, and it all happens so fast. I like giving them a respite from their parents – and vice versa.

  • The rest of my family and friends. I have the good fortune to say they are too numerous to mention, and I am grateful for every one of them. They keep me sane (no small feat, as many of you know) and give me perspective when I need it (which tends to be often). Life is a long road trip, and it's good to have people to share the ride with.

  • My Job. Let’s be honest – it’s still a job. If it weren’t, I would call it my Fun and probably wouldn’t be getting paid for it. However,
    1. I have a job, and lots of other folks don’t,
    2. It pays for the things that make life manageable, and
    3. When I don’t have to deal with the other Random Assorted Bullshit (RAB), I like teaching. When I haven’t taught a class in a while, I get cranky until I can get in front of a group again. It’s good to help people have a better 40 hours a week.

  • Our house. It has the right amount of room for us, and has lots of room for company. It has made me a political activist (who would have thought?) because sometimes you have to fight for what’s right, even if it’s your own recycling bin.

  • My photography. Look – nobody is going to be analyzing my work in an Art class. But I’m learning… and that process alone is something pretty good. A teacher needs to be a learner too, and the images help.

    Henri Cartier-Bresson said, “The creative act lasts but a brief moment, a lightning instant of give-and-take, just long enough for you to level the camera and to trap the fleeting prey in your little box.” To do that creative thing is something else that helps me stay (reasonably) sane.

  • Legalized drugs. Caffeine, alcohol, and (rarely – sorry, dear) nicotine. All in moderation, each for their own purpose.

  • The Internet. It sounds stupid to give thanks for the Internet, but I am. I’ve been able to find all sorts of folks that were lost to me through Blogger and Facebook. Facebook has been great for those feeling-kinda-crappy or squee-I’m-so-excited moments, and just staying connected despite time and distance. I can wish for things on Amazon, read a favorite writer on TelevisionWithoutPity, and download Foo Fighters onto my MP3 player. (Current fave: Echoes, Silence, Patience & Grace)

    And the best thing I can do on the Internet - I can show my photos, write stuff down, and hope that these musings aren’t in vain.

Thanks for sticking around for 700ish words – and enjoy the holiday.
((HUG))

The Loaner Camera - update

Well, was fun while it lasted.

The Loaner Camera had to go back yesterday, and surprisingly, it wasn't as hard to let go of as I had expected it to be. I had a blast with it, but keeping it would have been incredibly selfish. Life can indeed be short, but it can be long as well, and you have to be able to live with the choices you make. Keeping that camera would have been a big betrayal to my Dear Husband. Given that he has put up with my astonishing amount of emotional crap over the past sixteen years, he deserves better from me. So - off it went. I'm looking forward now to earning one I can keep.

I wound up not going to NMAH, because DH wants to go with me. Hey, he's interested in going to a museum, so I can definitely wait until we can go together. Instead, I spent my last afternoon with the D60 at Brookside Gardens, shooting the winter that's creeping into the landscape. There were some roses in various stages of bloom that got freeze-dried at the recent first frost. There's an abstract beauty to them that I'm really looking forward to showing you. The ponds are starting to ice up, too.

Sorry I've taken so long in getting images posted. Since I didn't use the camera's software, I have to process everything through Photoshop Elements. This has proven more time consuming than I expected, but I should have some goodies soon.

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